Inner child is calling

journal, mental health

The edge of being happy for so long yet super stress has led me to the edge of oh feck it’s happening again. Sadness , is lurking I can feel it internally. The feeling I get before , I break down. I’ve been neglecting my own inner child, as I physically fill her with sugar and smoke her out with cigarettes. As I send her broke by spending countless of money thinking I’m rewarding to spoil her, in reality I’m keeping my inner child quiet, ignoring her cries for help from all this stress. Compressing it into a box once again, hoping I never have to deal with it. Unfortunately, it’s an on going cycle , a cycle in which I’ve used to survive. Yet, some choices have led me to this edge before I breakdown.
A cry is good , sleep is needed and so is self love for that inner child of mine. She’s calling for help, hoping I’d listen … only time will tell .
Every sunset is different, as tomorrow is a different day . Hopefully, tomorrow I wake up feeling refreshed and all this worry from stress is relieved, so my inner child can be at ease.

Did I bring something home?

adventure., Spirit World, urban exploring, urbex

If you don’t know or haven’t read my journals before I have a gift, a gift of being connected to the spirit world. I have done much with this gift but I’m able to feel presence, see them at times and have been touched. They don’t scare me , but when I’m exploring abandoned buildings I usually get ones telling me to leave, in that case I do. However the recent explore I did was different…

In the image above , was a bathroom I where I stood at the entrance, I could feel something in thus bathroom, I stood there for a bit, after taking this photo I walked away but the presence wanted me to come back. I went back, I felt like it wanted my company, no idea why… I could hear my friends calling out to me, I told them where I was. They were ready to go… yet something did not want me to leave…

After the house we went here, my friends went one direction and I went the other, I don’t usually leave the squad but this time was different, I didn’t feel alone and I realised that when I felt something gently touch my hand . I stopped in my tracks and looked at my hand , haven’t been touched by a spirit since I was 13 . I was okay though.

That night when I got home, I was sitting in the toilet, the light turned on and off by it self. I thought great I’ve brought something home with me and it wasn’t my intentions.

It’s now the 1st January, 6 30 am, laying in my bed and the smoke alarm goes off, so I get out of bed walk to the kitchen and it stops,… then 640 am it goes off again and back to the kitchen I go , no smoke again, I put my hands over my face and whisper stop.. 2 seconds later it stops.

What the eff did I bring home, it wanted my company and now its doing weird shit around my house.

Caloundra locals infuriated about the old Post Office

adventure., journal, urbex

Caloundra locals are disgusted about the recent changes of the old historical post office, wishing it had been kept as a historical building rather then very much destroyed by the over use of orange paint for marketing purposes.

This orange building is now use to capture tourists attention leading then to qr coded stickers around the building, once scanned tourist get to a site advertising the infrastructure of new holiday apartments which is intended to be built on this site.

Without a care the painters covered this building including the plants in orange, what a strange way to advertise, but if it works it works.

I will be continuing to follow the growth of this site, curious to see how long this mess will be stationed here until the new site gets built. There are still so many unanswered questions, as the post office local claim to have been here doesn’t look like the building in the image. My guess would be that something else was built here after the old post office.

K is for Potassium

botany, diy, food, garden, mental health, nature, personal, plants

Looking at the periodic table the symbol K is for Potassium , a key element that majority of our Green plants love. To keep a plant bold and beautiful, it needs one of the key ingredients, Potassium.

Why else does your plant need Potassium?

🪴 Helps the chemical and metabolically process

🪴 Assists in photosynthesis

🪴 Generates chlorophyll

🪴 Regulated movement of water amongst cells

For the love of our plants babies, have you looked at your plants and asked them how they are, they may not talk back but they may have symptoms of a potassium deficiency.

A plant will tell you if needs potassium by;

🪴 You’re vegetables and fruits are not ripening.

🪴 The leaves at the bottom half of them plant are turning yellow

🪴 The growth of your plant have slowed or even stopped.

A way to feed your plant Potassium?

Avoiding chemical fertilisers, your plant will eat up the Potassium in banana peel. So rather than throwing out you banana peel , give it to your Potassium loving plants.

What can do you with banana peel?

🍌 Banana Peel Tea

🍌 Banana Peel powder

🍌 Compost it

🍌 Apply it directly into the soil by cutting it into pieces.

Do it Yourself – Banana Peel Tea

All you need is banana peel straight off your bananas, place that peel in a jar of water with a lid. Keep it in for 7 days. Remove the peel from the jar with the tea, and tip it at the base of your plant.

Key note

It depends on the plant on how much you need to feed it potassium, it also depends on the season and the environment your plant is living in.

Just a quick DIY

art, diy, garden, nature, plants

I really enjoy drinking v , found an empty v can waiting to go get cashed in for ten cents. Hmm not this time, decided to do a quick DIY , made my own pot for a sweet little Aloe Brevifolia. I did remember to put drainage hole in the bottom..

Look how adorable she looks!

A girl

adventure., journal, mental health, personal

A girl with a fragile heart, never actually heals, she just tries to survive.

Out of the walls, she sits with nature, as she let’s her higher power communicate with her.
From sunset to sunrise, she hopes it’s not all pain, but how does one mend when trauma is all they’ve known.

Beginner Plant Mum Update

garden, plants, Uncategorized
Hey guys, so if you are following me for my plant mum journeys, I am a beginner, as you all know I’m wishing I paid more attention to plants when my grandmother was alive. However as I did not, I’m now learning on my own. (not completely on my own I do use social media platforms to learn off other plant parents)

In the image above you can well and truly see I have gotten into propagating, some plants you can do it in water and well other prefer the soil.

I’d like to thank the lovely Instagrammer below for giving me some advice. Attached is her Insta if you’d like to check it out.

Snake plants

A few months ago, I cut some snake plant leaves and placed them in glass jars. As you can see they were ready to pot in soil.

Check out my panda plant, it’s finally got more growth spurts

Over thinking

journal, mental health, opinions, personal

I just want to get a pen and paper and write… I mean who really wants to hear my random racing thoughts? Most of the time I don’t even want to think about the thoughts cause there is no importance behind it. I mean yes I am easily amused, I like to analyse and problems solve and I like to find a way to make a negative situation positive. But being an over thinker can be extremely tiring for me, I find it hard work. I also find it comes in handy especially working in an industry where attention to detail is highly important.

I have realized that when my brain is trying to process alot, I struggle to find something to blog about. So many things inspire me, I don’t just have one Hobbie, I have many, I just don’t have a few ideas, I have heaps and trying to mold it all into one is was I aim to do on here. As I find having this blog actually helps me with over thinking and expressing.

Re Wiring the Brain

I’m no mental health genius but I do have experience, which I enjoy sharing with my followers, friends & family, hoping to enlighten them. I did overall 18months of Dialectical Behavior Therapy(DBT) & that I do recommend!

Majority of the time we view over thinking as some what negative, but imagine if you had the ability to re wire your brain into making the situation positive, or just looking at it positively. PROBLEM SOLVING. Belive me when I say this skill does not happen over night and can enable one to become physically and mentally exhausted, however it has worked for me.

What if?

If you managed to get to the bottom of this post and you have questions feel free to ask, I’ll answer the best I can.